So here I am on the job. It's a very busy position, but at least I can sign on to blog and check e-mail during breaks. With what they're paying me I think I can probably afford to finally get myself some DSL at home so I can do everything else. Alas, they don't use IM, so no inter-office chats with my friends, boo. Though with as often as my trainer is hopping up to go to the boss's office to ask her something, I might suggest that we start using it.
I don't think this is something I want to do for too terribly long, but it's a good transitional job to build experience and tide me over until a better opportunity comes along. I'm finally feeling a little peace about settling into a career in office administration, but I think that's only because I know it will be a relatively short career, seeing as how Matt and I both want me to eventually be a full time writer/homemaker/stay-at-home mom and we're both working toward that goal. So in the meantime I don't mind bringing home the bacon while he gets himself all ejumicated. I'm still kicking myself for not majoring in IT or web design or something more creative and/or computer related when I went back to school, but there's not much I can do about that right now. At least I've finally moved up to a job that doesn't involve answering phones, so a big YAY! to that.
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I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that I am not a person who is suited to a big wedding. Matt certainly isn't, and he came to terms with it a long time ago. So now we're leaning toward the idea of having a tiny wedding in Eureka Springs with just our nearest and dearest present, and then coming back home and having a big party/reception for the whole family. The more I think about this idea the happier it makes me. It would mean putting my dress back up on eBay and getting something better suited to a tiny, intimate wedding, but I'm okay with that, too. I love my current dress, but I'm kind of feeling deprived of the experience of shopping for a dress with my bridesmaids. Plus there's the whole making a plus size dress fit a no longer plus sized body thing. I still have to run this whole thing by my mom, who is pretty dang determined to see me in that particular dress, but I think she'll see reason when she realizes how much money we'll save her by running away to get married.
3 comments:
That's really great that you recognize what you want. So many people are caught up by what they should want instead of what is real.
I can't wait to hear more about the wedding plans, the wedding, and the marriage!
Huzzah on the job! Gainful employment is yours.
The wedding thing, I hear ya. I often wonder if I had it to do over again if I'd forgo the big white wedding. Whatever you decide, I'm sure it will be special.
Manoah
Garnigal - it's hard in this day and age to admit that I'd be happiest just staying home and taking care of the house/eventual kids, but I would. My biggest career aspiration has always been to stay home and write, and that hasn't changed, but in addition my inner Martha has begun to speak up to tell me that I really want to be a homemaker, too. I figure it's a lose-lose proposition--whether I work or stay home there will be groups who will criticize me, so I'm just gonna focus on making myself and my future family as happy as we can be.
Manoah - I thought I wanted the big wedding with all our friends and family, but trying to plan it so far has given me nothing but anxiety. I'm not having any fun at all, and that just ain't right. Discussing potential elopement plans with Matt is the first time I've really enjoyed myself since we started talking wedding plans. I think I should probably take that as a clue. And yes, it will still be special. In fact we can probably afford to make a small, intimate wedding a lot more special than we could a large wedding where we'd have to cut a lot of corners and do a lot of settling.
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