*Cough* *Whinge* *Cry*

I'm continuing to feel blechy. Last night I was fairly optimistic that a good night's sleep would be enough to KO this crud right out of me, but then I woke up around 3:30 and couldn't go back to sleep, so now I just feel cruddy + sleepy-tired. With a PMS cherry on top, apparently -- the last two nights, as soon as Matt turned in for the night, I burst into uncontrollable crying jags that lasted about 20-30 minutes each. The first night I just went with it and shut myself up in my mom's swanky bathroom, put my head down on her vanity and sobbed my little heart out. When I started last night I sort of rolled my eyes at myself and tried to fight it and go about my business, which resulted in me sobbing over the sink while giving Fizzgigg a bath. I'm sure to an outside observer it would have looked pretty sitcomical. Ain't it fun being a girl?

I figure the main source of the tears (besides the hormones) is just pure tiredness and frustration over not being able to do anything about it. Here my body is doing its best to force me into rest mode, but there just isn't time right now, and there isn't likely to be time for many weeks to come. Which is an incredibly depressing thought. I try to at least get to bed early enough to make sure I get enough sleep, but lately I haven't been able to sleep through the night, so that's not working for me so much right now.

Despite all of this, after I managed to stop bawling last night, I did some Pilates for the first time in forever. If I can keep at it then I might actually stand a chance of being in decent shape in time for the wedding. I think I had better keep at it, because it turned out to be a pretty good stress reducer, especially when I incorporated a few yoga stretches into the routine.

I'm sure my outlook will improve vastly once my hormones straighten themselves out. Getting the invitations out of the way will also help. Once that's done I can start focusing more on the fun stuff. And tonight, Nyquil is going to be my best friend.

For today, I have filing to catch up on. At least it will make the time pass more quickly.