Because it's not just water weight.

So today, I ran. It's been a while, and it felt good. I could only stand to do a 1-minute run/two-minute-walk rotation for about twelve minutes, and I've spent the last few weeks just working up to that, but still, yay running. Hopefully, running and I will stay on good terms throughout the rest of the year.

It was a good mood picker-upper. I didn't get to go to the gym but one day last week, and my eating habits lately have been utter shite. When I don't take care of myself I tend to get really negative, moody and depressed. I have GOT to start taking better care of myself.

For one thing, I need to be in better shape for Matt. Yesterday we found out his grandma passed away, so I need extra energy to give him the support he needs right now. I'm sad for his sake, and I'm also sad for my own sake that I never got to meet her. It was one of those things where we had every intention of going to visit her, but we never managed to get around to it, and now it's too late. Let that be a lesson, and all that. Sad.

So this week I'm getting myself back on the wagon. The Valentine's chocolate is all gone, I've got the work fridge stocked with healthy snacks, and for the evenings, I've got salad. When payday comes later this week I'll stock up on more healthy stuff. I've noticed that Special K has a new chocolate cereal out, which I'm thinking of keeping stashed around the house for whenever I get chocolate cravings. I'm thinking of all kinds of ways to help get my eating back under control. If I keep going the way I've been going, I'm not going to have any clothes that fit me left in my closet, and I'm not going to have any self-esteem left, either. It's past time to tighten the reigns and get myself back under control. Clearly, just going to the gym regularly isn't enough.