Holding Pattern

I feel like this blog is in as much of a holding pattern as I am, just hanging in there waiting for conditions to be right (or at least close enough) for it to become an TTC/Overcoming IF blog, and then hopefully transition into a pregnancy blog and then a mommy blog. But for now it's just kind of... here, like me, and I feel obliged to do an update every now and then so people don't forget this blog is here, even though there's not really that much to update about, because the status quo is boring.

I haven't been feeling that great lately, so I guess that's something different. Since Tuesday I've been fighting fatigue, just wanting to sleep constantly. If it was accompanied by sore boobs I'd be awfully suspicious, but AF showed up this morning, so that cause is definitely out--although there was pretty much no chance it could have been that, anyway. I think PMS and dreary weather were a big part of it, because now that the sun's been out a few days and my hormones are settling back down I'm starting to feel slightly more energetic, although I'm still having a heck of a time dragging myself out of bed in the morning.

I'm sure the fact that I haven't been working out much lately isn't helping. Although I thought that might be the cause on Wednesday, and took advantage of a short break in the clouds to go for a walk in the sunshine hoping that would make me feel better, but all that did was make me feel like puking the rest of the day. I've been taking it easy because my knee has been feeling jacked up, but "taking it easy" was supposed to mean walking instead of running and doing Pilates and other low-impact stuff, and instead it has meant not doing much of anything at all. So I'm going to drag myself out there later today and go for a twenty minute walk and get back into a fitness routine, although I'll go ahead and stick to low-impact stuff until my knee stops threatening to give out. I REEEEEALLY can't afford a knee injury right now.

With all of this, plus craving (and indulging in) all kinds of comfort food during the rainy and chilly weather, I think it's safe to say that I will NOT be down to a size 10 by my birthday. So I guess instead of new jeans I'll just get a nice new belt to hold up my current jeans once they start fitting loosely.

In other news, I have a new design client, but it's a one-project deal, so it won't be steady work. I need to get busy this week trying to round up another client project so we'll be able to pay next month's bills. I also finished the second draft of my next novel, and I'm waiting for my beta readers to finish it and give me feedback so I can do the third and final draft, which is to say that it will be out soon. I need to wait and see the extent of things that need to be fixed before I decide on an official release date, but it should be in the next month or two.

Matt got his camera, finally -- a Canon Rebel, although beyond that I'm not sure of the specifics. He's been practicing with it and studying photography books, and soon he'll be ready to start a photo blog. Hopefully we'll be able to afford for him to take some photography classes this summer. But I'm impressed with a lot of what he's done so far. I think he's got a real talent for it, and he'll be great once he really learns what he's doing.

And that's what's happening in the world of us.

In Which Lame Blogger Is Lame

First, the "Lame Blogger Apologizes For Being Lame By Not Updating" portion of today's post - sorry, y'all. I wish I could say I've been too busy to blog, but the truth is that I just haven't felt up to it lately. I haven't felt up to much at all, really. I haven't been sick with the flu or anything, but it's been one thing on top of or after another keeping me down. The SAD and allergies I wrote about last time, hormonal wackiness, insomnia and other disordered sleepy-time fun, and inadvertently ingesting things that didn't want to leave my stomach without a fight have all added up to me spending most of my waking hours on the sofa, wrapped in an afghan and alternately staring unproductively out the window or at my laptop screen. "Bleah" pretty well sums up how I've been feeling lately.

Unfortunately (or thankfully, all things considered), business has been pretty slow the last couple of weeks, so I had the luxury of being able to give into the bleah-ness. I did manage to work up a few short bursts of productive energy, during which I added some Halloween and pet items to my Etsy shop, cobbled together a couple of custom backgrounds for both of my Twitter profiles, and offered the latter up as a new Task Wrangler service.

I think I'm starting to get back to normal again, finally. I realized the other day that I haven't worked out or eaten particularly healthful meals since I started feeling poorly, and that without either of those things I was going to continue to feel poorly, so as of yesterday I'm working out and eating decently healthy things again, and that's helping. I finally started drafting a formal business plan yesterday, which is helping me feel motivated on that end of things, and I got the approval I've been waiting for to start coding on a new web site I designed for a client, so that should help pull me out of this funk. I'm also feeling funky about having barely touched revisions on my novel in the last two weeks, so I'm gonna spend some time on that after I finish this post and eat some (healthy) lunch.

Aside from those things, my goal for the weekend is to shake off the rest of this funk so I can get back to my regular routine by Monday, when I intend to start posting weekly goals again. And also possibly to bake some cookies. Snickerdoodles or peanut butter, I haven't decided which.

What about you, dear reader? Is it just me, or has this change in season (and mold spore levels) thrown you for a loop as well? And which type of cookie do you prefer? Make me unreasonably happy by weighing in in the comments.